Livvy asked me what ‘ashamed’ means yesterday, I explained the best I could but thought it was an odd question for her to be asking me. I didn’t think anymore of it until a song came on as I was driving to school to pick both Eddie and Livvy up.

Over the weekend we went to watch ‘The Greatest Showman’ we all enjoyed it so much and drove home streaming the soundtrack through the car speakers. You can’t help but feel good whilst listening to the music, the following day all we played at home was the sound track, as Livvy started to create dances to all the different songs. Livvy even told me it was her new favourite movie of all time and wanted to know when it would be out on DVD so she can watch it again!

Whilst listening to the soundtrack (again) in the car the words of one particular song jumped out at me and it hit me as to why Livvy had asked me what ashamed meant. I hoped I had explained it well now knowing why she was asking me, I can’t remember what I had said but she didn’t question it so fingers crossed it was a good explanation.

The song is sung by Keala Settle and is called ‘This is me’ it sums up the feel of the whole movie, I wont give away any spoilers to my dear readers who haven’t yet seen the movie but what I will say is when you live with a condition that at times makes society turn its back on you and doesn’t include you for who you are this is definitely a feel good movie that will make you feel invincible. Maybe this is why it is now Livvys favourite movie or just simply because its a great movie regardless of the messages it conveys.

It does help that Hugh Jackman who takes the leading role as P.H Barnum also plays Wolverine who is one of Livvys hero’s of the movie world, again it could be argued that she feels a connection with this character who is so different from everyone around him and is shunned from society or it could just be because he is portrayed so well by Hugh Jackman throughout all the Xmen movies.

If you’ve not heard the song ‘This is me’ yet, give it a play, I don’t think I need to explain how closely the words could be taken straight from Livvys own thoughts. She constantly pulls herself up when the world around her tries to drag her down, she may in time question why she has XP and the scars on her face but for now she’s happy being Livvy for she is glorious, just as the song confirms. She is who she is meant to be.

I am not a stranger to the dark
Hide away, they say
‘Cause we don’t want your broken parts
I’ve learned to be ashamed of all my scars
Run away, they say
No one’ll love you as you are

But I won’t let them break me down to dust
I know that there’s a place for us
For we are glorious

When the sharpest words wanna cut me down
I’m gonna send a flood, gonna drown them out
I am brave, I am bruised
I am who I’m meant to be, this is me
Look out ’cause here I come
And I’m marching on to the beat I drum
I’m not scared to be seen
I make no apologies, this is me